school is in a few weeks. i need to get myself in control and do a 180 degree turn. and at the place im gonna stay its gonna be tufffffffff. tuffer than anything uve ever touched. but i have to do it, for myself, my life. gotta go to God now and hav him take over the wheel. itll be good no worries.
only thing that sux is that ive said and done this once before and it didnt work as i had planned it so alot of folks are gonna jus wait and see if i fall but i hope i actually can do this for the rest of my lifetime. we'll see how it goes.
faith and belief
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
RETREAT & VBS
So retreat i think, was a good opener for my freshmen class. we all got to meet the upperclassman and made friendships with them. they are truly a good class to look up to and they will be missed when they move on, but they will leave a mark on our lives. but yeah they are all cooool cooool people.
we had a last minute change in speakers but every thing happens for a reason so. Kel was our guy and what a guy he was. He was from YWAM(youth with a mission) and he basically gave stories about his missionary work and info on dts(discipleship training school) and all that good stuff. but the stories and experiences he shared with us were quite amazing and just showed how God loves and does things.
this retreat for me personally was a kick start i needed to get back into my spiritual life. it has been dead for months and months and i needed something to spark it back up and this was it. the praise was good and the sermons and the fellowship all played a part in it. Usually when i know a retreat is coming i get all hyped up and stuff and go crazy but this one was different. its not that i wasnt excited about it but somehting else. but yeah it happened and im glasd it did. just a weird feeeling thinking about it.
so we got back on monday and for some of us we had vbs the next day tuesday until friday. so some of us wud be seeing each other for a week straight.
so tuesday is vbs and we all go get ready, meet the kids all that good stuff. it was a great experience and the praise surprisingly was good as well. I joined vbs b/c the teachers i had as vbs teachers gave so much to me and just were part of my growing up and were a part of putting me into the person i am now. so i wanted to do the same and hopefully i did.
so we came back on friday and firday night after dinner some of us went to hang out in k-town. and long story short two groups met as one and from there it only went up hill. we all talked about retreat and got all deep. realtions were made or re mended and just all of us just got soo close and the only reason that could have happened was b/c God wanted it to. i think we all learned something about ourselves that we didnt know before as wwell as about the other people we were with. but God does amazing things he really ddoes. until next time
peace and love
we had a last minute change in speakers but every thing happens for a reason so. Kel was our guy and what a guy he was. He was from YWAM(youth with a mission) and he basically gave stories about his missionary work and info on dts(discipleship training school) and all that good stuff. but the stories and experiences he shared with us were quite amazing and just showed how God loves and does things.
this retreat for me personally was a kick start i needed to get back into my spiritual life. it has been dead for months and months and i needed something to spark it back up and this was it. the praise was good and the sermons and the fellowship all played a part in it. Usually when i know a retreat is coming i get all hyped up and stuff and go crazy but this one was different. its not that i wasnt excited about it but somehting else. but yeah it happened and im glasd it did. just a weird feeeling thinking about it.
so we got back on monday and for some of us we had vbs the next day tuesday until friday. so some of us wud be seeing each other for a week straight.
so tuesday is vbs and we all go get ready, meet the kids all that good stuff. it was a great experience and the praise surprisingly was good as well. I joined vbs b/c the teachers i had as vbs teachers gave so much to me and just were part of my growing up and were a part of putting me into the person i am now. so i wanted to do the same and hopefully i did.
so we came back on friday and firday night after dinner some of us went to hang out in k-town. and long story short two groups met as one and from there it only went up hill. we all talked about retreat and got all deep. realtions were made or re mended and just all of us just got soo close and the only reason that could have happened was b/c God wanted it to. i think we all learned something about ourselves that we didnt know before as wwell as about the other people we were with. but God does amazing things he really ddoes. until next time
peace and love
Thursday, August 5, 2010
fell and still falling
the main problem is that i make no effort and plan on not making one to try and re connect with the spiritual side. its like i'm just acting a christian and not being one. it is hard...it all started like this.
a few months ago i was like the craziest jesus freak ever with my group of jesus freaks and stuff. we wud praise like crazy, go to prayer meetings and alll that. like our lives 24/7 was God God God. and then i dont remember how specifically but me and a buddy (ill call him ken) started to slowly but surely slip away from this phase which turns out was just that...a phase. we knew it too. we would always say "hey man the devil is kickin our asses to the ground right now" and stuff like that. and we tried we really did to stay up and not get kicked down. but lookin at me now ive been kicked to the fullest kickin ever. im sooooo low. i do giv props to the devil for doing a great job but fuck u nigga.
me and ken had a conversation once. we were talking about drinkin etc etc. and we were talkin about some of the jesus freaks and how we couldnt ever see them drinking and stuff like that. but what we did say was......that if they did fall meaning drink or "sin" then that only meant that he or she was gonna be something great in the kingdom of God and the only reason that satan tried so hard to make them fall was because theywould be a big oppstacle for satan to face. thats why satan used all the might he had to try and drop that person...make sense?
We were going to be something great in the army of god and we would have SURELY defeated satan without breaking a sweat. but one by one satan took us down to weaken the army because we played such a vital and impactful role. so if you do fall or see someone fall know this....you are a strong person that is why you fell....but also now you must get back up and fight your battle against motha fucka satan and give him that one more obstacle to face...which is me and you.
hope this made sense.
Peace and love
a few months ago i was like the craziest jesus freak ever with my group of jesus freaks and stuff. we wud praise like crazy, go to prayer meetings and alll that. like our lives 24/7 was God God God. and then i dont remember how specifically but me and a buddy (ill call him ken) started to slowly but surely slip away from this phase which turns out was just that...a phase. we knew it too. we would always say "hey man the devil is kickin our asses to the ground right now" and stuff like that. and we tried we really did to stay up and not get kicked down. but lookin at me now ive been kicked to the fullest kickin ever. im sooooo low. i do giv props to the devil for doing a great job but fuck u nigga.
me and ken had a conversation once. we were talking about drinkin etc etc. and we were talkin about some of the jesus freaks and how we couldnt ever see them drinking and stuff like that. but what we did say was......that if they did fall meaning drink or "sin" then that only meant that he or she was gonna be something great in the kingdom of God and the only reason that satan tried so hard to make them fall was because theywould be a big oppstacle for satan to face. thats why satan used all the might he had to try and drop that person...make sense?
We were going to be something great in the army of god and we would have SURELY defeated satan without breaking a sweat. but one by one satan took us down to weaken the army because we played such a vital and impactful role. so if you do fall or see someone fall know this....you are a strong person that is why you fell....but also now you must get back up and fight your battle against motha fucka satan and give him that one more obstacle to face...which is me and you.
hope this made sense.
Peace and love
hs
i see everyone from my high school still keeping in touch and talking like no other. i realized that during high school i didn't have one group of super close friends but was almost mediocre with a lot of people. this can be a pro and can be a con depending on who you ask. but i think i do wish that i would have had that one clique that no matter where in the world we went to college or where in the world we went on vacation we would always kit.
but eh people will be people and i will be myself. and i will get judged and criticized for the way i carry myself, but hey i'm just doing and telling it like it is, and yeah a jerk or douche i may be but a fake i am not. id rather be a loner than hang with people that i don't get along with and make me act a certain way so i could try and like them. that's just life, some people just don't connect, the chemistry in personalities just doesn't mix and when i'm around them its just constant conflict.
but eh people will be people and i will be myself. and i will get judged and criticized for the way i carry myself, but hey i'm just doing and telling it like it is, and yeah a jerk or douche i may be but a fake i am not. id rather be a loner than hang with people that i don't get along with and make me act a certain way so i could try and like them. that's just life, some people just don't connect, the chemistry in personalities just doesn't mix and when i'm around them its just constant conflict.
at this point...
at this point in my life spiritually i guess you can say im dead. the fire is no longer burning and church is church, a burden, a place of no wonders anymore, a place not even to go to see my friends. i go and i leave. dont hang out yeah yeah blah blah long story.
at this point in my life in worldly terms, i guess i can say im fine. im having alot of fun waiting to go to college.
at this overall point in my life, ill rate myself on a one to ten basis. ten being everything is at thee most perfect and one being thee worst. i think actually im at a 6 to 7 ish area. the reason being it not being at a full ten varies from reason to reason and situation to situation. i wont write what those things are but yeah they do take a toll. sooooo here is where i am.
at this point in my life in worldly terms, i guess i can say im fine. im having alot of fun waiting to go to college.
at this overall point in my life, ill rate myself on a one to ten basis. ten being everything is at thee most perfect and one being thee worst. i think actually im at a 6 to 7 ish area. the reason being it not being at a full ten varies from reason to reason and situation to situation. i wont write what those things are but yeah they do take a toll. sooooo here is where i am.
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