you ever wonder why you were made? lol kinda random. dang it feels good to blog again. i missed this lol. anyway have you ever wondered that or what is your purpose.? Why did God(if u believe in Him) put you on this planet? So me and a buddy started fasting last week every tuesdays and thursday(all welcome to join) to find out this answer. so far nothing has been answered but its still very early. and its preparing me for my goal for a 40 day fast i plan to do in college.
its just one of them days ALL people have where you just think about stuff deeply and you just want to just leave and go off and do your own thing. you know what im talking about. but if you tell people they prolly just think ohh hes going throught that phase again and juust wait till it goes.
thinking about alot of stuff where theres soo many things its like your thinking of nothing. your actually not sure if you even are thinking of anythihng.
one thing is if im going to Heaven. or how to get there. why am i here. what does my future look like. how will i be when im like 70 you know all those questions. i hate those sometimes but i guess its just life. i havent even got into college yet you know i shouldnt be thinking about this stuff.
and God has been on mym mind alot. more this past few months then all my life put together. trying hard to please Him but not hard enough u know.
sometimes i wish it would just end like in a minute or tomorrow and God would come and take us(if we are chosen) up with Him to Heaven. i dont really mind the live my life part i just wanna go up now. dont need to get married or have kids and stuff. Just wanna be with Jesus.
and i hate thinking about my parents dying. ill leave it at that.
i guess you can thank satan for troubling thoughts and for all else too. its hard to please God.
I jus wanna live in seclusion and live in the mountains or something and live quietly. jus me God and the bible. wouldnt that be something. imagine all you could accomplish in deep thought and silence.
and the church. oh man where do you being. the people, the problems, but also the greatness and holiness. so much hate and drama and cliques. i cant say im apart of some of this too thoguh. but theres jus some folks that you just cant get along with. and some people were creted jus to always clash with you. and then the people you always think about. LUST has been killin me lately. and TEMPTATIONS too. those are the twin towers of me right now staring me down man. and you just wonder why or what happened to those people. idk it might be just me. maybe im the one trippin balls. maybe im the one that has the personality maybe im the one who cant get along with others. maybe its me. who knows.
Come down on us God. Let it end so your people can be with you face to face prasing your name. Let us worship side by side the serapham and just worship you. Let us be able to embrace you in our sights. Oh God please let it stop. why does stuff happen. why are we here.
Peace and Love
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