its everytime someone walks by. everytime you chat or post or something that should seem insignificant but you blow it up and make it the most important thing and focus that thing to make yourself feel better. it happens when theres more than one and you dont know which to choose.
when they get noticed or something happens and they are in the spot light and are the center of attention and they just seem harder than ever to resist.
this is one of the things i wish i could get rid of in thw world. more than anything for me at this point. over poverty at this point i would prefer this be gone before that. it controls your life, how you live it, how you want to look, how you act, talk, eat, dress, walk, study, basically everything in your life can be attributed back to this. and then when another person is there it goes even higher.
and just realizing it isnt enough. though a good step 1 def not the last step. one of the hardest things to overcome.
and with todays world it makes it even worse that you cant do this. i suffer from this all the time. everyday. and the little things they do i make it seem like it was the most important thing ever that i received...to be cont
Peace and Love
Maranatha
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
jealous much
Jealousy will knock you the eff out. Its so hard to control but once you realize and talk to someone about it gets easier. but it lingers over you like a rain cloud that seems to pour on you an everlasting storm.
whether its with acceptance, ability, appearance, quantity, etc. itll always bite you in the butt. and as things are always happening you can and will always get the opportunity to be jealous though you should never.
this is a hard sin to overcome high key it really is.
and theres so many ways to cope with it but since the side effects of jealousy are usually negative you just become a bad person in a sense and just put people down and talk behind backs and just deal with it on your own in an unhealthy fashion.
dang if theres one thing i could get rid of it would be jealousy.
Peace and Love
Maranatha
whether its with acceptance, ability, appearance, quantity, etc. itll always bite you in the butt. and as things are always happening you can and will always get the opportunity to be jealous though you should never.
this is a hard sin to overcome high key it really is.
and theres so many ways to cope with it but since the side effects of jealousy are usually negative you just become a bad person in a sense and just put people down and talk behind backs and just deal with it on your own in an unhealthy fashion.
dang if theres one thing i could get rid of it would be jealousy.
Peace and Love
Maranatha
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
IHOPU
so its been on my mine for a long long time but i never knew if i should. i heard about ihopu before but i was like nah man. its not accredited and its still new and stuff. but i guess pastor howards sermons reassured me in a sense.
i KNOW that when i go here(if i do) that it will just explode my spiritual life. or it may hinder more than ever. i could get so tired of them and just not in the mood to do what they want but i hope i do not get hindered like that. i hope here God will just open me and take advantage of me and just takeover my life.
i feel like if i go here that my life will be spiritually strengthened and all my aspects of my christian life will be stronger.
with resources like the 24/7 prayer room, and easier access to conferences and internships i think my faith will be broken and released all to Him.
i want to go and visit so i can see if the campus and state is truly for me.
if u know me u know i absolutely love ucla and its been my dream since elementary school to go here. but at this point if i got into ihopu and ucla i think id go ihopu. i know crazy right.
i want everyone to go here so we can all grow together and just wake up and see the Christ, but everyone has there own plans and ihopu just was never an option. alot of people prolly dont even know about it. but think about it...wouldnt it be great to have you, your friends, and other strong christians praising God and learning about him together? i think it would be amzing. i got my friend to print out an application so i hope it works out.
God is doing so much for me and i feel like i can do so much more to my absolute fullest ability if i go here.
i KNOW that when i go here(if i do) that it will just explode my spiritual life. or it may hinder more than ever. i could get so tired of them and just not in the mood to do what they want but i hope i do not get hindered like that. i hope here God will just open me and take advantage of me and just takeover my life.
i feel like if i go here that my life will be spiritually strengthened and all my aspects of my christian life will be stronger.
with resources like the 24/7 prayer room, and easier access to conferences and internships i think my faith will be broken and released all to Him.
i want to go and visit so i can see if the campus and state is truly for me.
if u know me u know i absolutely love ucla and its been my dream since elementary school to go here. but at this point if i got into ihopu and ucla i think id go ihopu. i know crazy right.
i want everyone to go here so we can all grow together and just wake up and see the Christ, but everyone has there own plans and ihopu just was never an option. alot of people prolly dont even know about it. but think about it...wouldnt it be great to have you, your friends, and other strong christians praising God and learning about him together? i think it would be amzing. i got my friend to print out an application so i hope it works out.
God is doing so much for me and i feel like i can do so much more to my absolute fullest ability if i go here.
24/7 prayer room IHOP
this used to cost money and now its FREE. its pretty amazing i saw some healing done today. people being called up and just being prayed for by strangers is a wonderful sight. the music is good too. BIG UPS to the praise bands for all their hard work and devotion to carry this on for 24/7. that's truly amazing and God bless em all.
Peace and love
Maranatha
Peace and love
Maranatha
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
music
dudes why is praise music soo gooood? its the bees knees. i need a MP3 so i can listen to it at school. anyone got one?
(currently listening to Hillsong)
Peace and Love
Maranatha
(currently listening to Hillsong)
Peace and Love
Maranatha
the end is near
natural disasters. Haiti, Samoa, tsunamis and hurricanes and floods.
the younger generation getting more crazy for you day by day. the younger and younger they seem to be getting. one day our kids. getting younger so they can see you and you will take us up with u.
you are coming soon. i know in this lifetime we will witness something indescribable, un-witnessable, un-writable, un explanatory, we will know when your here.
the army of God is being built with younger generations. new blood is being recruited through dreams and other.
the younger generation getting more crazy for you day by day. the younger and younger they seem to be getting. one day our kids. getting younger so they can see you and you will take us up with u.
you are coming soon. i know in this lifetime we will witness something indescribable, un-witnessable, un-writable, un explanatory, we will know when your here.
the army of God is being built with younger generations. new blood is being recruited through dreams and other.
post retreat prayers
Dear God,
I pray that this doesn't go away but that it stays forever until you come. be with everyone as we are suffering from post retreat syndromes and wants to go back and not go to school. thank you for the fellowships you have created in the past present and the ones you will create. thanx for my lil bro's and sis's and that ill always know my friends until the very end. please let us never break apart and that we will travel together in life and see each other grow more close to you and evolve into ur people. be with us as school life comes along Jesus.
I praise you for this past retreat. never lord have i seen heard experienced and told of you like this. the fun that we had together and with everyone else lord will never be replaced it will be in our memories forever. God you are toooo amazing and never will you fall past 0. will you only go higher and break us and burn us with ur fire so that we will walk immune to the worlds pollution jesus.
Amen
I pray that this doesn't go away but that it stays forever until you come. be with everyone as we are suffering from post retreat syndromes and wants to go back and not go to school. thank you for the fellowships you have created in the past present and the ones you will create. thanx for my lil bro's and sis's and that ill always know my friends until the very end. please let us never break apart and that we will travel together in life and see each other grow more close to you and evolve into ur people. be with us as school life comes along Jesus.
I praise you for this past retreat. never lord have i seen heard experienced and told of you like this. the fun that we had together and with everyone else lord will never be replaced it will be in our memories forever. God you are toooo amazing and never will you fall past 0. will you only go higher and break us and burn us with ur fire so that we will walk immune to the worlds pollution jesus.
Amen
Retreat 2010
just got back. and lemme tell you that i can only tell u in person what has happened. God shook us all and we worshiped ourselves out. as all retreats we are all refreshed and we play the waiting game now on when this refreshment will eventually die down. but God dont let that happen be with us and let this fire eternally burn us
Retreat 2010 UFC
Where to begin...everyone you ask will say that this one of thee or even thee top retreat. the seniors will def say that this was a good way to say goodbye. but it only gets better. with the younger generation getting even crazier and crazier for God i know in the next 3 years that the YNESH retreat will be freaking ridiculous. when the jesus freaks are seniors and the lil guys are sophs i know that some crazy ish id gonna happen.
even though we did come down early cuz of a snow warning, lemme tell you.. wait i cantits unexplainable. U can ask people because i think this is what really got people going...people who on sundays who never sing or clap or not even think about raising their hands to the lord those type of people were extinc in a sense at retreat. ive seen my best friends sing and ive never seen them sing in my life before. ive seen people who made fu of people who raised their hands but then i saw them do it themselves. i saw the most type of people who would be too shy and scared to do it ...i saw them do that we all did. people had to look behind themselves to make sure and see what that noise was and when they looked they were in shock to see them sing.
Pastor Howard if u ever come across this page thanks soo so sososo much. you were truly amazing and you were meant to be at our retreat at this time on purpose. his sermons were actually identifiable to our lives and they were funny too and he knew when to get serious.
BIG UPPPPPPS to the praise team. countless hours of practice and sweat but dang man way to blow the roof off.
and the teachers oh God thank you soo sosososo much for them..all of them. they work so much almost with no social life to make us happy and dang what a job they do.
TA's way to come out. thanx so much for being out watch dogs lol kepping us in check. it was good seeing old faces and meeting new ones. its like God is droppin more and more friends at our side.
And God i dont even know if a thanx will do for you. maybe i have to kill a lamb or something but everytime you never seem to amaze me.
i hope that this isnt a retreat high that lasts longer than others but lasts forever. that we can learn from the young and look at the old that we will get up and speak and be unashamed.
Peace and Love
even though we did come down early cuz of a snow warning, lemme tell you.. wait i cantits unexplainable. U can ask people because i think this is what really got people going...people who on sundays who never sing or clap or not even think about raising their hands to the lord those type of people were extinc in a sense at retreat. ive seen my best friends sing and ive never seen them sing in my life before. ive seen people who made fu of people who raised their hands but then i saw them do it themselves. i saw the most type of people who would be too shy and scared to do it ...i saw them do that we all did. people had to look behind themselves to make sure and see what that noise was and when they looked they were in shock to see them sing.
Pastor Howard if u ever come across this page thanks soo so sososo much. you were truly amazing and you were meant to be at our retreat at this time on purpose. his sermons were actually identifiable to our lives and they were funny too and he knew when to get serious.
BIG UPPPPPPS to the praise team. countless hours of practice and sweat but dang man way to blow the roof off.
and the teachers oh God thank you soo sosososo much for them..all of them. they work so much almost with no social life to make us happy and dang what a job they do.
TA's way to come out. thanx so much for being out watch dogs lol kepping us in check. it was good seeing old faces and meeting new ones. its like God is droppin more and more friends at our side.
And God i dont even know if a thanx will do for you. maybe i have to kill a lamb or something but everytime you never seem to amaze me.
i hope that this isnt a retreat high that lasts longer than others but lasts forever. that we can learn from the young and look at the old that we will get up and speak and be unashamed.
Peace and Love
Monday, January 4, 2010
2010 info
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Peace and Love
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prayer request 2010 (praykwonzaa.blogspot.com)
1. God will flourish even more this year and years after this one
2. school will be coo. stress wont consume me and i wont consume myself. i will maintain grades and all academia
3. my season will be a good one and i will do good. both at church and school teams. i hope i can play in the church vball and bball tourneys and have fun wasn't able to last year. yn is too competitive which is good and bad. but yeah go good baby go good
4. i get into a good college preferably my dream and that once i get there or anywhere i will do good and not slack and push strong and hard
5. my life with YOU will be great and our connection will constantly become stronger and stronger
6. my prayers will be more and ill stay focus
7. KIT with alot of folks or the important ones at least as we depart from our ways in college
8. church will be good, school will be good, family will be better
9. ill grow in faith move a few mountains here and there and t the g and get whacked up with me and my friends and go crazy
10. make 2010 good. real good
Peace and Love
2. school will be coo. stress wont consume me and i wont consume myself. i will maintain grades and all academia
3. my season will be a good one and i will do good. both at church and school teams. i hope i can play in the church vball and bball tourneys and have fun wasn't able to last year. yn is too competitive which is good and bad. but yeah go good baby go good
4. i get into a good college preferably my dream and that once i get there or anywhere i will do good and not slack and push strong and hard
5. my life with YOU will be great and our connection will constantly become stronger and stronger
6. my prayers will be more and ill stay focus
7. KIT with alot of folks or the important ones at least as we depart from our ways in college
8. church will be good, school will be good, family will be better
9. ill grow in faith move a few mountains here and there and t the g and get whacked up with me and my friends and go crazy
10. make 2010 good. real good
Peace and Love
2010 pt 2 (playin jay-z in the back)
so what am i expecting for 2010.
first of all GRADUATION baby class of 10 always good. but it will be sad as i depart from my friends from church and school. i can play the vitamin c song as they slowly fade away into the universe.
then i gotta go to college lol. whichever i get into wherever i pick i hope God guides me to him and a place where i know ill be strong in faith and will further expand his empire to others at that campus. so college is gonna be fun and hard i know but i hope i get into where i wanna go.
Smt is coming again. Idk if i can go this year but if i do lets hope all the wrongs from 09 dont come along to 10. i hope now ill be more prepared since i experienced it last year and i know how things work now. hope alot of folks can go too but people always flake. hope a good group goes. thats the key to a successful mission trip is the people who accompany you in your journey. but as humans conflicts will arise and thats when you SEE people. so i hope i can go and i hope itll be fun and hard but for God. and i hope alot of people can go with the right mindset. smt 2010 a good one
School is coming to a close. in some months i will gradute(hopefully lol) and i will hold m head high with pride from my school and to wherever i end up going. i hope my season for volleyball goes well as it will be my last with this San Pedro and it was def a memorable one. i hope we do good and be the best for a while. hope it sparks the future years to step up and bring pedro back to the top. In academics i have to maintain gpa and grades and not slack. its like a marathon im on mile 25 and i have to go through 26 with my head held up high drippin with blood sweat and pain but imma get through it i know i can. Idk school so many thoughts to talk about but i think i have what is needed down.
Church is gonna be a sad place as i move from ynesh to ecm. ynesh has provided me with so much and has shaped me to be who i am right now. as Pres imma miss it as i say goodbyes and usher in the new class and shake hands with the new seniors. i bet theyre stoked i know we were. i hope that it just goes crazy and explodes with God's love and that my last retreat which is coming up in a few will be the spark to light it up and cause a chain reaction to everyone else. Ynesh and all of yn has to be more welcoming and i know they is few peeps who are willing to do that. read my yelp yall know. but i hope that ynesh stands strong as it loses some and gets some. but ynesh will always be home for me and some teachers i love em
Wherever i go to college i hope i focus on school(unless its ucr lol) and that i maintain my focus on education and God. no distractions will lose me from that mindset and if i do that i can recover from it. i hope i keep in touch with people from school and church as we are scattered all over the nations to various colleges and universitites. kit-ing is always hard and i know some people will fade away but i hope it doesnt and some people will prolly go to the same place as others which is always cool. but college being college its a new world man new people new places new ways and stuff but idk i hope it all works out for everyone for the better.
thats 2010 ahead for me with bits and pieces added in here and there but ill keep yall posted.
so till next time
Peace and Love
first of all GRADUATION baby class of 10 always good. but it will be sad as i depart from my friends from church and school. i can play the vitamin c song as they slowly fade away into the universe.
then i gotta go to college lol. whichever i get into wherever i pick i hope God guides me to him and a place where i know ill be strong in faith and will further expand his empire to others at that campus. so college is gonna be fun and hard i know but i hope i get into where i wanna go.
Smt is coming again. Idk if i can go this year but if i do lets hope all the wrongs from 09 dont come along to 10. i hope now ill be more prepared since i experienced it last year and i know how things work now. hope alot of folks can go too but people always flake. hope a good group goes. thats the key to a successful mission trip is the people who accompany you in your journey. but as humans conflicts will arise and thats when you SEE people. so i hope i can go and i hope itll be fun and hard but for God. and i hope alot of people can go with the right mindset. smt 2010 a good one
School is coming to a close. in some months i will gradute(hopefully lol) and i will hold m head high with pride from my school and to wherever i end up going. i hope my season for volleyball goes well as it will be my last with this San Pedro and it was def a memorable one. i hope we do good and be the best for a while. hope it sparks the future years to step up and bring pedro back to the top. In academics i have to maintain gpa and grades and not slack. its like a marathon im on mile 25 and i have to go through 26 with my head held up high drippin with blood sweat and pain but imma get through it i know i can. Idk school so many thoughts to talk about but i think i have what is needed down.
Church is gonna be a sad place as i move from ynesh to ecm. ynesh has provided me with so much and has shaped me to be who i am right now. as Pres imma miss it as i say goodbyes and usher in the new class and shake hands with the new seniors. i bet theyre stoked i know we were. i hope that it just goes crazy and explodes with God's love and that my last retreat which is coming up in a few will be the spark to light it up and cause a chain reaction to everyone else. Ynesh and all of yn has to be more welcoming and i know they is few peeps who are willing to do that. read my yelp yall know. but i hope that ynesh stands strong as it loses some and gets some. but ynesh will always be home for me and some teachers i love em
Wherever i go to college i hope i focus on school(unless its ucr lol) and that i maintain my focus on education and God. no distractions will lose me from that mindset and if i do that i can recover from it. i hope i keep in touch with people from school and church as we are scattered all over the nations to various colleges and universitites. kit-ing is always hard and i know some people will fade away but i hope it doesnt and some people will prolly go to the same place as others which is always cool. but college being college its a new world man new people new places new ways and stuff but idk i hope it all works out for everyone for the better.
thats 2010 ahead for me with bits and pieces added in here and there but ill keep yall posted.
so till next time
Peace and Love
2009
so reflections on 09
it was ok. actually more than ok.
my life with God was off to a good start then kinda withered a lil bit but back on track. school was ok first half of senior year was a wake up call but its ok now. all those apps were stressful but now i play the waiting game. smt was great retreat was great it was good.
xmas was aiite not too good but never really excited bout it new years was money in the bank so thats always good. now 2010 .
it was ok. actually more than ok.
my life with God was off to a good start then kinda withered a lil bit but back on track. school was ok first half of senior year was a wake up call but its ok now. all those apps were stressful but now i play the waiting game. smt was great retreat was great it was good.
xmas was aiite not too good but never really excited bout it new years was money in the bank so thats always good. now 2010 .
2010 baby
Guess it's my turn to write my resolutions and expectations about 2010 since everyone already did it.
so...
1. everybody's favorite lose some poundage
2. get a job so i can have some cash when i go to college
3. keep my life with God strong
4. maintain grades and school stuff
5. be good when i get into whichever college i get into.
so...
1. everybody's favorite lose some poundage
2. get a job so i can have some cash when i go to college
3. keep my life with God strong
4. maintain grades and school stuff
5. be good when i get into whichever college i get into.
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