What?

its everytime someone walks by. everytime you chat or post or something that should seem insignificant but you blow it up and make it the most important thing and focus that thing to make yourself feel better. it happens when theres more than one and you dont know which to choose.
when they get noticed or something happens and they are in the spot light and are the center of attention and they just seem harder than ever to resist.
this is one of the things i wish i could get rid of in thw world. more than anything for me at this point. over poverty at this point i would prefer this be gone before that. it controls your life, how you live it, how you want to look, how you act, talk, eat, dress, walk, study, basically everything in your life can be attributed back to this. and then when another person is there it goes even higher.
and just realizing it isnt enough. though a good step 1 def not the last step. one of the hardest things to overcome.
and with todays world it makes it even worse that you cant do this. i suffer from this all the time. everyday. and the little things they do i make it seem like it was the most important thing ever that i received...to be cont
Peace and Love
Maranatha