chillin

ive been hanging out with my small group members and daniel so much lately. one week we went to my place and kicked it in the south bay then we went bolwing with some homies then we went to wi spa, only the best place in the world. im so happy our bonding is going so well.
the only things is the attendance in these outtings is very small. the givens who go to all of them are always myself and david jin. we always go and the others usually switch off. its hard to have people come out to things whether it be outtings, or 33 or aything these days. and others agree its hard to have people come out to things.
its outtings and bonding eperiences like jimjilbang that connect us like crazy. and for guys theres a special connection for obvious reasons but after step one its all down hill and your bonds with one another are just so much closer. and then with this close bond can u grow in the spirit.
and volleyball prac has started for the tourney in march(come out and cheer) and the schedule is alpha 7 to 9 then prac 9 to 11. but its funny when i come down from alpha to see like a group of 20 kids who cane just for prac and not alpha. i was like in a joking matter hey i didnt see any of you guys up there. but inside i was lowkey disappointed.
and one time we had a bagging for homeless thing. and the things was they said come help out and make lunch bags for the homeless and SENIORS we will help you out with your applications. that night there were so many people that came out. thats freakin ridiculous i was mad. and one friday night some of the homies agreed to meet up and work on apps together and they all met up and came and worked on them. they all whipped out their laptops which will be replaced in college and did that work.
its sad to know that people can come out they just dont want to. my one group of friends are so apathetic to Christ and jus religiona dnespecially openeing their hearts to others as well. they are so confined in clique mode they dont receive or let go of what they have. and it is good that they are so close no doubt but sometimes change we need. thats what i did.
but i luv em to deatha nd wud take a bullet for any of em. and they complain about how the ministry isnt one cuz of cliques and stuff and sepereation and stuff but helllooooo its uuuuu thats the problem. open ur hearts and eyes. there are so many people not only ion our church and ministry but amongst the globe who go unnoticed. like toby mac says we are one choice from together. go out and say freeakin hello or hi its not that hard. and once that obstacle is complete itll be easier.
so much more to vent and complain about but i apoligize for pointing out the speck of dust in others when i myself have a plank in my own eye but u need to be aware

peace and love
maranatha