once again, i havent been on in a while and i was being tugged at to write again and see if anyone had any new posts and such.
how do you feel about not talking to your best friend for weeks and eventually months. after spending so much time with them everyday for a few hours and then just completely cutting them off because your lazy or you dont want to go through the hassle of calling them or something.
its a bad feeling and feels almost like betrayal.
i havent been talking to the lord in a while, and i actually do think about it but when time comes nada. i miss Him and i need him yet i dont talk to him or anything.
in bruce almighty, bruce asks God how he can make someone love him without controlling free will. and god says welcome to my world. good point.
i guess in the same way i can ask myself, how can i talk to God everyday without stopping? what do i have to do, how do i make the effort to do it, this and that this and that.
i guess my real answer would be to just do it. sit down, get quiet, close my door and get down to work. and its not because i have to(partially) but its because i want to but i guess i just dont want it THAT much if i dont do anything to help myself.
and at the beginning of every week i tell myself goals i want to accomplish for the week and i tell myself ill do it throughout the rest of the quarter. but then time comes and slowly one by one i push things off and nothing ever gets done.
No qt, no praying, no running, no working out, always eating fastfood, blowing money, all these things i dont want to do yet i thrive in all of these which is bad.
i guess tonight when i pray probably after i write this, ill ask God to straighten me. But i also feel like i am choosing to ask him now at this time because i need help, and when God does help me then i will stop talking to him again and the whole cycle will eventually repeat itself.
God, dear father, im sorry. make me consistent, unlazy, strong willed and minded, and let me kick ass for you. and also let me be a missionary through ihopu. amen
peace and love
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Through our own resolve, it is nearly impossible to break from sin.
In Him (meaning in His presence), we can die to our old selves as He teaches us how to live in our new bodies. But the process of dying to oneself is a voluntary act that involves how willing you are to let everything go. Stay in His presence and let Him tell you what you need rather than you asking for what you think you need.
Press on. Read the word. One more thing, wisdom comes through revelation. In other words, we can only perceive the world accurately as God intended for us to ONLY AFTER we are revealed to WHO HE IS.
This is a quote that has helped me shape this thought: "God is what He has revealed Himself to be, not what we have theorized Him to be."
Love you bro.
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